Raging in York & dreaming of Hef's house

March 10, 2009

I fought, I lost. The end.

Well, not really the end, of course I have something to say about the match. I did find myself digging deep and found a part of me that had escaped me since my amateur days. Some where during the match when I was completely gassed and ready to give in, my body responded with some much-needed rage that carried me to the finish line. It was not an ideal performance per se, but mentally I found a part of myself that said never quit. I came through mentally, but physically I still was not there. Realistically I knew physically I was not going to be able to do the things I normally would be able to, but that was my own fault for taking the fight on less than a week's notice. I try to never take anything away from a boxer who does his part and competes like a true professional, as my opponent did, but I also want to give the full story on my conditioning.

After reading over some of my previous blogs I feel like this is becoming an excuse blog. I know there is a story behind every fighters record, and everybody has had a tragic past, and nothing really ever goes perfectly for any fighter. I like to simply put my complete thoughts and events into perspective and let the "critics" form their own judgments on me and my career. But, ultimately I know in my heart that I have a plan, though foggy at times. I'll see it through, no matter what the doubters say. I tick by my own clock and always will.

Back to the topic at hand, the match. I was contacted shortly before my March 7 match against Terrance Crawford in York, Pa., about fighting on the Playboy Mansion card March 21. Of course I'm interested -- it's the Playboy freaking Mansion! Lets get real, here.

Well, I noticed after my fight I apparently hurt my ribs slightly  throwing a hook. A short visit to the hospital and many pain meds later, I was on my way home to Osborn, Mo.,  to think about my last match and ponder my future plans.

Will I still get to fight my dream match at the Playboy Mansion, the Mecca of all male Meccas?
Well just have to see.